Tomorrow will be Day 15. To be caught up with NaNo I will need 25,000 words by end of day tomorrow. If I can write 2600 words both today and tomorrow I will be caught up. This is not an impossible mission. I’ve had NaNos that have gone far worse. So I have confidence that I can move ahead. Ideally I will write 3,200 words today and 2,000 words tomorrow.

Yesterday was a difficult day emotionally which made it difficult to write. I still wrote 1,300 words, but I’d hoped for more. This is a common feature of Wednesdays. For no particular reason, waves of depression crash on my shore that day. I don’t know why.

I’ve tracked my moods this year and I’ve noticed that Wednesdays are often sad days or down days. With the exception of Mondays, which I consciously take as cleaning/art days, I write the least on Wednesdays. When I’m not doing NaNoWriMo, Wednesdays are the day I spend in classes with Dean Wesley Smith, because after a Dean class I feel invigorated and ready to write again.

Ideally I would conquer the Wednesday problem. But I worry that if I somehow make depression go away for Wednesdays, it will just reappear another day. Zen taught me that we all live in the midst of weather, both outside and inside. At least my internal weather forecaster knows that the storms come on Wednesdays and I can plan ahead.

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